Steff

Steff used to date Emma.  They've never gotten over eachother although they've moved on.  They both figure they just impacted eachother too much for the loss of their relationship to ever completely heal.  They're very close still, although they live on opposite ends of the country--Steff's family now lives in California, while she's still in New York.
Parents are art collectors and own several galleries, fairly wealthy.  'E is a very talented photographer.

Due to ED Steff was in danger of many medical problems and even death, but has gotten help and begun to recover and regain health.  Relapses are frequent---'E's been in and out of treatment facilities for years.  Things are better now that 'e has some friends and some sense of worth but 'e will probably never be totally safe from relapse.

Shown here as REALLY emaciated.  Can be shown at this point up to slightly below average body weight while still being healthy.



Full name: Steffen Ivanov, goes by Steff or Steffi only (Emma and Gnat can call ‘er Steffen-Meffen though)
Birthday: 11/2/1990
Height: 5’8”
Weight: 70-140 lbs.
Gender: Androgynous, uses pronouns “them” or “’e and ‘er.”
Body Type: wide-shouldered, sturdy skeletal structure.  Emaciated.  Small breasts (implants/hormonal treatment).  Degree of emaciation fluctuates frequently.
Occupation: Fine arts photography student.
Ethnicity/Species: Human, beech marten fursona. Slavic.
Faith: Pagan leanings.  
Sexuality: Women.
Partner: Gnat
Music: Morrissey, The Smiths, Xiu Xiu (ick), Rasputina, Rozz Williams, Joy Division, Manic Street Preachers, Shudder to Think, The Cure, Bauhaus, Cocteau Twins, Tapping The Vein, DeVotchKa, Mozart, Siouxsie Sioux, My Bloody Valentine, Extra Life, Larkin Grimm, The Jezabels, Regina Spektor, Parenthetical Girls, Grouper, Tegan & Sara, Schroeder, Amanda Palmer, Scarling., Interpol, Mother Mother, Dead Can Dance, Loreena McKinnet, Nirvana, Depeche Mode, Sopor Aeternus, Ghost in the Addict, Black Tape for a Blue Girl, Faith And The Muse, The Knife, The Cruxshadows, Alien Sex Fiend, The Killers, Bright Eyes, The Birthday Massacre, The Arcade Fire.  Morrissey, 80s goth, darkwave, experimental, punk cabaret, Morrissey, classical, electronic, folk, freak folk, anti-folk, pop, Morrissey.
Fashion: ULTRAGOFF FOREVER.  Steff only wears black or white, with blue, red, and purple accents.  ‘E never wears bright colors. Romantic goth, trad goth, elements of steampunk and neo-victorian goth.  Crossdresses 24/7.  Casual outfit would be a band tee and black slacks or a mid-length black skirt (perhaps pleated).  Often wears dark lipstick and eyeliner (think Siouxsie eyes!); enjoys dressing up.  Doc Martens, stilettos, creepers, heels, boots, occasionally sneakers (for therapy etc).  Sleeps in long nightgowns or college tees and long pants (sweatpants or flannel).  Often dressed more warmly than seemingly necessary, frequently cold.  Wears a lot of velvet (blackest possible black fabric is velvet :P), satin, etc.  Just make ‘er look like Lydia Deetz and you’re probably fine.  
Drugs: Occasionally uses prescribed marijuana.  Rarely healthy enough to risk drinking.
Likes: Tumblr, photography, surrealism, E. A. Poe, Sylvia Plath, watercolor art, taxidermy, fashion, medical subjects and videos, Portlandia, the Big Bang Theory, cats and rats, sleeping, coffee, veganism, gender, magick, science, body art, moths, nature, churches, exercise and dieting, dinosaurs, pandas, poetry, insects, theatre, Fall.
Dislikes: Being cold, consumable animal products, commercials, pornography, excess, leggings, leopard print, cold foods and beverages, reality TV, politics, math, being alone, self, artificial ingredients, large slobbery dogs, country music, too much sun, getting wet, anime, strongly scented things, grease.
Movies: Valerie and her Week  of Wonders, Santa Sangre, Totoro, Lion King, Lesson Faust, Beetlejuice, Jan Svankmakjer’s Alice, Little Otik, Nosferatu, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Rosemary’s Baby, Spirited Away, The Last Unicorn, The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Birds, The Artist, Mirrormask, Lord of the Rings.  Surrealism.  ‘E is up for most films, but tends to prefer unusual fare.

HUMAN
Hair is varying in thickness and health, can be shown thin or even with clumps missing.  Almost always rather ratty, no matter how well-groomed.
May have lanugo (fine downy hairs found on emaciated figures and feti) on body or neck.
Horseish face, sunken cheeks.
Sickly tone to skin.
Looks somewhat prematurely aged.
Abdomen tattoo: purple lilies, wilting.  Baby bird.  Xiu Xiu lyrics: “Despair will hold a place in my heart.”
Collarbone tattoo: “Love will tear us apart,” purple.
Death’s head moth, large upper back piece.
Large gauges.  Helix pierced on both sides.  Left nostril, right side of lip, right eyebrow, left anti-eyebrow.  Madison, chest, nipples.  Four surface piercings on back (two on moth’s face, two under moth).
Surface piercing under Joy Division tattoo.  Navel.  Implantation in both forearms, raised squiggly line.

ANTHRO
Beech martin.  White patch on neck.
Tattoos, piercings still present.
Fur thickens the thinner ‘e becomes.
Bald patches, on tail especially.
Shown here thinner (accidentally made skeletal frame slighter…)

11/19/11

Two commission sketches, adult art update, reference sheet in the works, a few art cards.

2, 3, 4.  Now part of a theme for Shadowed Lives ACEOs illustrating the different characters.  Colors correspond to their energies, personalities, and connections with other characters and forces in the story.

Sketch for an ink commission for Magnus on FA.  Since I've been watching too much Metalocalypse, this seemed like a good idea, lol.

WARNING:

NUDITY AND ADULT ART UNDER THE CUT.  

(in that order.  most graphic at bottom, nudity-only at top)

12/13/2010

Doing REALLY well on my Christmas gifts for friends.  I've done a lot of human sketches, mostly of my boys Liam and Dan, and I'll scan them soon. I'm trying to design a sugar glider...it's tricky :P

Doodles of Dan I did on the corner of the French version of "Oh Christmas Tree" all ready for winter (well, sorta).  He gets a red nose on a good day so his nose must be like, NEON here.  He doesn't wear a nice, puffy warm winter jacket either (which is really dumb) because he thinks it makes him look fat.  This, from the kid who weighs nearly nothing--and no, Danno ain't manorexic, he's just plain thin.

But he does wear a cute hat and scarf. :/ He straightened his bangs only here.

 Dan and Jack.  Dan's side profile is atrocious.  I like the one above better.  I love his front view though.
Jack is in Bad Spider--he's the Guitarist Who Needs No Introduction--and is a fursuiter and fursuit maker as well as general furry artist.  He's an incredibly stylish person.  I SUPER stylized his features here as I'm starting to zone in on how I want him to look (the guys in Kill Hannah all resemble him in a certain way, lol).  He wears bunny ears and antlers (sometimes reindeer ones with little bells he bought at the dollar store) most days--his fursona is, oh god, such a groaner: Jack the Jackalope. :/  Dan had a crush on him for a while but then got over it because essentially Dan is not a gay character XP Jack is though.

 Liam and Derrick.  Still playing around with Derrick.  If the side profile looks familiar, it's a sketch based off of a different picture...that didn't turn out as well as I hoped.  I like his front view, though, and that initial picture of him works with the front view, so I just need to get better at those.
LIAM LOOKS PERFECT TO ME HERE.  I LOVE IT.

I "saw" Liam in a restaurant and doodled the guy on a napkin while watching him eat chicken wings and laugh at stuff his friends said.  I starred the ones I like.  I REALLY like the one of Andy with the hat on. And Anthro!Liam is a big masculine ginger tabby.  And may also be a wolf.  Depends on what he wants to draw.  

The side view looks more like the guy (who was in a hat) than he does Liam, but it's still close.  The picture above is WAY closer, but seeing that the front views were really similar was neat.  The hat makes him look different.  Plus I actually scaled his skull correctly on the napkin doodles....

And here's something I scanned for Mandeaux (Chizbizz on FA) yesterday, a little gift in exchange for some naughty arts of Carlos and Merriweather. X3
And another one just for being an awesome friend.

Also, WIPs from forever ago of Bailey and Benihime (contest prize...I want to just get it over with, I REALLY hate drawing anything for fetish furs).  I'm scared to finish the Bailey one.  Lately white on parchment has been a frightening thought.  But it's so cute. -_- 

WIPs for Sophie  (the moth-deer-rabbit-spirit character) and Joy (super cute peach-faced lovebird).  Characters for IRL friends.  I was really close to Sophie for the designing because she's a fellow artist and is planning to draw this design (eee!).  It's ALMOST done. 

her hair does NOT have V-bangs.  It has Bettie Paige bangs.  MY bangs are V-bangs. >:E

So she's a forest spirit primarily of decay (leaves rot where she walks, she can create dirt, create maggots and worms, decompose dead animals and plant matter, and make mushrooms grow) that gives off a weak aura attracting mostly moths but calming other animals so that she can approach any of them.  She didn't scan right: the arms are a pale grey, slightly brown, and the colors are darker and more mixed.  Oh well.

She can run around in the city or country, either or.  Likes lolita and vintage dresses, and high-fashion goth.  She is SO fucking fashionable irl.  One of those people that can wear ANYTHING.

So yeah, she's a forest spirit but she doesn't exclusively live in the forest.

Joy is a lovebird for a bunch of reasons.  She's annoying, cocks her head a lot like one, and sings.  She felt it fit her immature charm. XP Plus her buddy Liz is a dog-bird-thing so they sort of half go.  She also doesn't have breasts, but instead has this "bump" of feathers that lovebirds have on their chests.  And she has comic book bird hands, lol.  No fingers...but still left handed.  

Her pants are funky.  They're made to accommodate bird legs, and have holes for the knee and can zip off right above the knee or down the back for greater comfort/other options of wear in general.  I had a pair of zip off pants as a kid...ah, those were the days.  

Also, for my friend Kiera.

I don't really know why but I've always drawn her as a papillon, for a few years now.  Other animals may fit her better, but she's got this fluffy hair that she dyes all the time and she's just got this sophistication that reminds me of one.  She's by no means small.  She's really tall and is either a brown belt or lower-level black belt in karate.  She's sturdy, more sturdy than these dogs are.  BUT it just fits, so I don't question it.  She likes it anyway.  

She'd make a good owl. :P 

ADULT ART UNDER THE CUT.

12/4/2010

A ton of finished work and WIP's...mix of clean and nude/adult.  the latter are under the cut. finished version of Death and the Maiden.  Portfolio piece for sure.  Didn't scan the whole thing though, it got cut off. ;-;

Various unfinished ATCs.  Fanart for Matt & Kim (I'll Take Us Home to be specific, from the album Grand) and Say Anything (Little Girls), and a picture of Bailey wigging out in double.  All from this summer. 

The Body (Stand By Me was made from this story), and Carrie.  I want to make a "torso" for the middle but I need to pick another, recognizable, Stephen King story.  Also it has to be one I've read. XP I haven't read all his "classics" yet by any means. 

 Liam.  It doesn't look like how I want him to look.  His face used to be too "pretty" so I went all ultra-squished and now it's just not him either.  Honestly, he looks like Derrick (see below the cut, but warning: adult art) and that's annoying.  Drawn to the totally inspiring, mostly instrumental album Those Who Tell the Truth Shall Die; Those Who Tell the Truth Shall Live Forever by Explosions in the Sky (I bet it's a will instead of shall but I can't remember right now).  There's one track that's got speaking.

And finally, this is in my portfolio to show how my thoughts progress.  A redesign of a character with a long, interesting history.  I made up Triina in like, 7th grade.  She got me into some drama with gutter flower (who is a friend now <3) for good reason: I didn't quite understand what I'd done as being wrong, but I'd copied her character Tristan, especially his hair.  There wasn't enough distinguishing them (looking back it is one of the most embarrassing things I've ever done, honestly).  So then I was super inspired by all the adorable asian people all over Seattle and by a few tattoo books I'd bought recently, and just...by the atmosphere over there, and a bunch of bluejays in the bird feeder back home.  So I went crazy and made her an honestly cool character.  She's kinda chubby and small-chested, and I like it.  Her tattoos are all asian-themed now and I actually took the time to design them.  I threw on a TON of bird feathers, kept her hands which change color with HEAT as to MOOD but instead of dumb pawprints shaped like X's, she's got splatter markings.  Bird hands, birdlike feet.  Feathers and stumps of undeveloped wings, ridges of feathers that can raise and lower.  I love her now.
I'm making a few adoptables and some of them will be bird-dogs like her.
I was afraid to post the redesign for a long time. I  was kind of secretly convinced that I'd accidentally made her more like Tristan or more like another character, one I didn't even know existed or something...which was stupid, so I just went ahead with it.  Only for some time, I'd had Triina with new hair and a tweaked design that was acceptable to both of us.  She just fell to the wayside and I redesigned her to have something cute to draw.
She's got a totally different attitude too.  I mellowed her out like woah, and made her just...way cuter, way more fun, and less...gross and slutty.  She might join a riot grrl group that would then be around where Bad Spider and I Read the Giver play (I Read the Giver is read as in, past tense: I have read the Giver).  She's a fan of them and that's a shirt design I hope to make for real someday.

A really fun picture of Sid from alllll the way back in Summer again, when I was in Kentucky!  I love the pose...so sassy. She's my grey and white pit bull girl.  Fauxhawks ftw.  She's really damn cute and may be in a band with Triina.  in any case, she's friends with her if nothing else.  

The rest of the stuff is under the cut.

Some WIPs...

Went to an Alfred University visitation.  I decided that's where I'm going--I fit with the people there.  The energy's right.
We stayed with a friend who is on the portfolio committee and teaches there.  Gonna redo a few of my graphite pieces--she said to just keep drawing my rats because it's what I'm good at, what motivates me, and it's hard to draw a moving target in observational drawing.
But yeah, in that spirit...some WIPs, one of them is going in my portfolio when it's done.

It's greyscale and is already painted in, mostly.  Watercolor.  Gonna darken it a little in some parts.  Hopefully I can get a colored WIP scan but I'm in a hurry right now and it's at the other end of the house.
Steffen and...death, I guess.  Death and the "Maiden" I suppose.
Steffen's one fucked up guy.  He's Emma's ex and is very much confused about his gender orientation plus is revoltingly thin.  His ideal weight is 60 pounds.  He can't do much now except sit around and cry to Morrissey and The Cure.  And that's why you don't get surgeries relating to your gender if you don't know if you're ready. Basically he IS the song Sex Changes.
Dresden Dollsssssss.....
But yeah, um, I like drawing thin things and I like drawing obvious men with bangs.  Men...hm.  He's not sure.  I just like that his face is masculine enough that he looks odd with bangs.
I'm not even sure what the hell I should call him.  Her?
Yeah, prolly him.
so yeah.  some classical themes going on there.

wanted to upload two more but I must fly.  gonna eat some pizza with spaghetti on it and get over to school. :/
It's weird but really good.  Had no clue that's what the one I ordered came with.